You Forget Your Initial Intentions of Being Ill

10. We Only Choose Benefits and Advantages

There is an sequence to follow, in order to gain a deep understanding the law, “Thoughts create reality.” To begin with, you must exclude the events that happened to other people. You need to examine only what happened to you, not what happened to others.
This principle must be followed in order to fully understand the law, “Thoughts create reality.” If you have a victim mentality, it is difficult to examine tragic events that you watch on TV news, putting aside your emotional feelings.

Every life strives to have a better environment. Therefore, a man only chooses whatever benefits him. Then, why are there those who choose and create sickness or bullying? We are sure that nobody wants to experience pain and suffering. However, if you experience those miseries, that means that you have thought of them at the level of deep conscious. You are writing those events into your screenplays.

When you are experiencing sufferings in your reality, you must find its seed (initial intention) to change the reality. Otherwise, the same result will continue to be produced because the same seed is automatically sown. For example, the seed of illness might have been your wish to let you off from work, to make someone treat you better, or to make someone apologize to you. The illness that was initially just a method to make your wish come true, became the purpose itself.
You forget your initial intentions (those are the purpose of your life), so you are apt to feel that you are a victim of your destiny, believing that you had not intended those events. But your initial intention is the origin, or the seed for creating your reality. The reality is the fruit of the seed.

If you are experiencing bullying, like horrible treatment from your boss, your initial intention may be to prove your perseverance. If you think, “I’ve struggled alone and worked hard despite of my boss’s bullying,” it might sound as if you are a better person, and it would give you some kinds of self-fulfillment. Making your boss a bad person naturally makes you a better and righteous person. In fact, your bully boss is just a projection of your deep conscious. This reveals that you are also a bully in your deep conscious. For the payment of concealing this fact, you end up experiencing being bullied.

Regardless of what your current reality is, let’s consider that your current reality would have had benefits at the beginning. By observing your present benefits, you can find your initial intention. And then, you can modify it and release yourself from hardships.

Your Feeling Is Not Necessarily a Fact.

Chapter 9: Your Sense of Deficiency Is Proportioned to the Amount of Your Desire

Let’s say a man answered the question in the preparatory exercise for Chapter three, that love means parents always listen to him. He believes his parents did not listen to him, which he took as a sign of their lack of love for him. However, how could he be sure that his parents did not listen to him? You cannot be so sure of your own senses. The feeling that your parents did nothing for you is not necessarily a fact. Children under the age of six have a very limited perspective and care about only themselves. They do not remember when their parents listened to them because it always happened naturally. If their parents ignored them once, they would have kept strong memories because they felt resentment toward their parents, and they would have the memory that their parents “always” did not listen to them because they replay the memory repeatedly.

On the other hand, there are children who can accept their situation easily. They do not complain to their parents when their parents don’t provide what they want. Those children did not expect much from their parents in the first place, thus, there is a difference in perceiving an event among children with different degrees of desire. If you hear one person state, “My parents didn’t take care of me,” and another state, “My parents did,” you cannot judge which person was cared for more than the other. Yet, you can assert that those who clung to the memory that their parents did not take care of them had really a strong desire for their parents to do that.

For those people, it is difficult to relinquish the resentful memories. The image of the poor self is transferred into another image that they made with much effort; this process changes the lazy and mundane self into somebody of distinction and importance. Unhappy memories of their parents not loving them are an attractive and agreeable story to make other people sympathize and forgive them despite their bad traits. They can manipulate other people into taking care of them.

Even when the stories are kept private in their minds, they feel a sense of superiority because they are trying very hard despite their unfortunate past. Thus, they have no intention to let go of the past when they have already grown up.
As I explained above, there are misunderstandings in their minds which are emotionally charged. Those misunderstandings lead to their current situations in which they feel frustrated or underappreciated it is. Such a waste of energy to have these misunderstandings! Recognizing these misunderstandings is the way to liberate themselves in the true sense. However, their freedom is still limited as long as they blame their parents for their current lives. That means that they are still spiritually dependent on their parents even if they seem to be financially independent.

His Parents Did Not Love Him…True?

Not Being Able to Get Along With Others

Mr. Y’s problem is that he cannot get along with others at work. Looking back in his childhood, he felt that his parents did not love him. He felt that he was left alone because the mother worked as well. So he decided to be alone when nobody paid attention to him and it became his habit. Because of this habit, he became not good at getting along with others.

He realized, though, when he became a parent, that always staying close was not love, but support for his child to grow and develop as a person was. A memory came back to him that that his parents trusted him very much and let him do things freely. The parents would say to him, “Don’t worry about money. Pursue whatever you want to do.” This allowed him to recall many more memories that proved his parents’ love.

Those memories have been in him all the time but have been intentionally ignored. Now his current perception has changed, and his past changed accordingly. Now he realized that he had enjoyed being alone rather than being left alone without choice. He also noticed that he has had the confidence to be very decisive since he was a child. That was his hidden and intentional result of being alone.

Now that his interpretation of the past has changed, and he acknowledges it, he can choose to be alone or with others now, without stress. This change in interpretation enables him to get along with others at work now.

Memories Are Not Facts

Chapter 8: Memories Are Fabricated

We learned in Lesson 6 that thinking is the same as taking action. If you accept it, can you say for sure that your brain could differentiate real experiences from mere imaginations or fantasies? You may say, “Yes, I can. Everyone can do it too.” However, the answer is actually, “No.”

The below example illustrates what I mean: there is a mother who reads to her child almost every night. “One day, I was too tired so I was about to skip reading. My son then said ‘Mom, you always skip reading.’ I was surprised, as I seldom go to bed without reading to him. This made me realize how children perceive negative events in an exaggerated manner.”

Children indeed tend to perceive what happen to them in this fashion. They cannot recognize what they regard as normal but strongly remember what is not. Thus, the boy only remembers the times when his mother didn’t read to him. Those few events left stronger impressions in him and are repeatedly recalled in his mind. The more frequently the events are remembered, the more they become intensified. Consequently the boy ends up thinking this happened “all the time”.

Also, you often hear people say: “My parents ignored me all the time when I was a child, “My dad hit me a lot when I was young,” “As a child, I was crying all the time,” and so forth. You must be skeptical if those statements are really true. Ask them what details they actually can recall on these occasions. Usually, it is the case that they can only remember just one or a couple of times the event happened in their lives of thirty-plus years. Yet, they would tell you that this ALWAYS happened. What occurs is that their imagination/fantasy has constructed and expanded what happened to build the memories as they have now.

By the same token, whatever good deeds you imagined doing are repeated in your mind, and the repetitions make you feel like you had always been doing them actually.
1. “I always cared about my mom.” (Imagination/Fantasy)
2. “I always helped my mom with chores.” (Occasional action and imagination/fantasy)
3. “I always took care of my younger brother.” (Forgetting about having bullied him much more than taking care of him)
4. “My dad was always asleep at home.” (This actually happened once a week.)

You need to be careful especially with case 1, a memory created by imagination/fantasy. You are aware of your own imagination/fantasy and believe in your mind that you did care about your mom for real. But you fail to notice the thoughtfulness of others because it is invisible and unrecognizable to you.

Thus, your memories of your own good conduct become inflated by imagination/fantasy, while you do not do the same for the good behavior of others. Bad actions by others get magnified by your imagination/fantasy in your mind and are remembered that way. Then, how reliable is your memory?

I have shown you how memories can be constructed by your own intention. The basis of your life is rooted in your childhood, but it consists of your own imagination and fantasies to a large degree. This means that you can manipulate and change most of the root since you are the one who created it.



Thinking and Taking Action Are Same Thing..But Why?

Chapter 6: Thinking and Taking Action Are Same Thing

Since the surface conscious cannot perceive your deep thoughts, it is necessary to use strong, exaggerated words in order to perceive them. For example, in denying somebody and saying, “That person acts wrong,” you need to exaggerate and say instead, “I want to kill that person.”

[Negation/denial (Criticism, Bulling, Attack, etc.) —-> Killing/Murder (Death)]

The exaggeration probably seems too much to you. You may say, “Criticism and murder are completely two different things. I’ve never thought of killing that person.” But this creates a barrier in your mind and prevents you from looking deeper into your mind. When you start to conceal your wicked thoughts because you don’t want to see them, you lose the ability to perceive your true self.
What comes next is that you feel there are external forces such as destiny or fate that control and manipulate your life. Expressing fleeting, almost imperceptible thoughts in strong, exaggerated language helps you to find your honest and true mind.

You remember the example of the young man who lost his mother, in Chapter 4, “Results are purposes.” He may never have wished for her death. However, he must have felt a kind of negation, “I don’t need a mom like her anymore.” “The denial” equates “No need.” Once this thought accumulated enough, it may have lead to the actual death of the person.

Thinking about something equates to taking an action upon it. Denying somebody in mind, even if it is not expressed explicitly, is just as same as saying it aloud. This produces a negative reality. An example is a businessman Mr. A, who is secretly criticizing his boss in his mind every day. His co-worker, Mr. B, brought his own criticism directly to their boss. Still, Mr. A gets bitter treatment from the boss rather than Mr. B, even though Mr. A said nothing and Mr. B was the one who expressed his discontent. Why did this happen when Mr. A was not expressing anything openly?

Here is another example. A boy would steal $10 from his mom’s purse once a month and his older sister would take out a dollar every day. She did not get caught as she only stole $1 at a time. However, the boy did get caught and scolded by his mother because of the larger amount. Who stole more money in this example? You will never know the truth as long as you compare the amounts for only one day. The sister stole more and repaid nothing for it, while the brother had to repay by being reprimanded. She will need to pay back later in a much larger form, which means something much larger or more serious will happen to her to make her pay for her actions.

What matters here is the quantity of thought, not the amount of actions taken. Thoughts create reality, remember? Since one cannot measure the amount of thoughts, which are invisible, he ends up feeling unfairly treated in emerged reality. The truth is, it all depends on how many thoughts he accumulates in his mind.

We all have arbitrary criterion of punishment. It would be simply subjective to dismiss your wicked thoughts, saying, “Oh, this little thought won’t do anything negative. It is so small.” You must not ignore your thinking patterns and your amount of thoughts. You need to start doubting your belief that you do not have negative thoughts, and examine the amount of small negative thoughts you have accumulated.


In Los Angeles, 2014

Why do people try to become poor?

Chapter 5:

1 % of Thoughts in Surface Conscious might be Enormous in Deep Conscious.

The deep conscious is enormous in quantity. It has different layers of depth. Many people think that one could reach the deepest part of the subconscious by meditation or hypnosis. Yet, the level of the depth touched by meditation is not as deep as the level that can be detected by Fractal psychological methods. When you go into your deep conscious with the guidance of your surface conscious, you will be limited by your surface conscious.

Let’s say that your whole consciousness is an ocean. Meditation and hypnosis is like diving without any gear, so one cannot go too deep (You can go until the level 1 of the deep conscious in the Illustration 2). In order to detect the deeper deep conscious, the analysis of your current reality is a quicker and precise way, because the reality is results of your compounded thoughts. The deepest part of your deep conscious has appeared as your surroundings (at the level of the deep conscious 3 of the Illustration 2).

You may hardly feel the thoughts in your deep conscious with your current surface conscious. However, as you have already learned, the fact that you hardly feel them doesn’t mean that those thoughts don’t exist. In the above ocean analogy, when you find one deep sea fish on the surface, there might be a whole bunch of them in the deep sea.

It is usually the case that when you are frustrated in life, your present reality does not match with your current conscious thoughts. When your thoughts in the surface conscious match with your thoughts in the deep conscious, you feel things are going well and you do not perceive any problems. Your current situation is taken for granted and you don’t think of it. But if, one is in debt despite his wish to make lots of money, for example, that would make him wonder why this has happened and take this situation as problematic.

In this case, if he takes a look into his deep mind, he might find less than one percent of negative thoughts, that nobody acknowledges him despite of all his efforts. If there is one percent of those negative thoughts in the surface conscious, then there exists much more of the same in the level of the deep conscious. The resented self may actually want to receive acknowledgement, attention, and empathy for his efforts rather than making money. Usually, wealthy people do not receive much thoughtfulness or empathy from others.

So, he was unaware of creating his week points, by saying “ In spite of all my efforts, it’s still hard to overcome lots of troubles, I’m not sure I could handle them..,” in order to get thoughtfulness and sympathy from others. That is not straight desire to make debt, but this thought may lead to the actual situation of being in debt.

Therefore, you need to admit that you, knowingly or unknowingly, actually wished for the opposite at the level of the deep conscious if your present conscious reality is different from that.

Whatever your reality may be, it is a manifestation of your thoughts. However, people tend to conceal this fact. In the above example, he hides his desire for sympathy or attention and cannot admit that it was actually the purpose of getting in debt. As he experiences the discrepancy between thoughts and reality, it seems to him that there are exceptions to the rule that thoughts create reality.


The instructors of my school in Japan.↑

Thoughts create reality, 100%!

(Continued from chapter 3)
When you fail to acknowledge the law of your thoughts creating your reality, you start to put blame on everything and everybody around you, starting with your parents and siblings, then, blaming your boss, coworkers and other people. By blaming others and relinquishing your own responsibilities, you start feeling that other people and external circumstances control you. Your consciousness fixates on the externals and not on the internals (self). This creates a world where you feel things are beyond your control and such things as destiny and fate exist. It is quite difficult to believe that your gender, your physical body and your birth family are the results of your choices and thoughts. After all, those feelings all stem from the misinterpretation that only the tiniest portion of consciousness is recognized as the entire self.

[Illustration 2]

Surface consciousis currently experiencing                                                                                                                          ↓                                         ↓ Reality (created by Deep conscious)


↑ Deep conscious

1: Level of psychology (used to be surface conscious)
2: Level of genes
3: Level of monism